I could abuse you well beyond your wildest dreams from what i’ve seen on here, despite all this bullshit negative energy with no willpower to change, your fantasies aren’t really that dark or abusive and only a fraction of the ‘badness’ i’ve dished out on the one i used to be with and who i have a mutual life connection with.
But whatever. You can change. I know you might say something along the lines of ‘Oh but all i want to do now is be a piece of meat blah blah blah i’m pathetically weak’.
The thing is, in a way your mind is trying to take the weak way of healing its past damage, and by GIVING IN to ‘use me i’m broken with no hope’ you can heal yourself and in the end be much, much more satisfied with an emotionally healthier life which you will enjoy a lot more.
Its one of those things that just seems impossible, if not BEYOND impossible, like ‘Nope, i’m irreversably broken and that’s the end of my life there’. No, what? Only if you keep yourself weak, only if you give in to it, only if you (basically) feel like being a pathetic idiot and ACTING like some pathetic waste of life. No.
The human mind is near to limitless (if not limitless) in its power and the mind and heart can work together to heal themselves, all of that is well within reach if you put in the time and don’t be some pathetic UNWANTED bitch for the way you’re acting. Listen to yourself -
'I want to give myself fully to someone to be abused massively so i can be giving pleasure as my final purpose in life' - uuuuuuhhhh… YOU WERE SEXUALLY ABUSED NOT BORN WITH CEREBRAL PALSY YOU ANNOYING BITCH! Use more than 2 brain cells, please?
If you want to get that back what you need emotionally mental physically and spiritually you need to start challenging your thoughts and show your POWER and AUTHORITY over your own mind, then once you start challenging your own thoughts, you can overpower that negative, pathetic, pointless and self-defeating way of thinking (and way of living even maybe!) and take the longer, harder, steeper path towards true happiness or carry walking down the easier, flatter but duller path that just worsens as you continue down it?
I could write so much more, much much more, i could respond to you non-stop, to dig you out of that pit you are much, much too complacent in.
You’re full of shit and it’s just annoying. You’re so weak you’re just taken on this ‘skin’ of bullshit.
You might as well change the title up top there to ‘Weak irritating bitch’ and the ‘About’ on the side there should change to ‘I got abused as a child, and although its well within my reach to heal myself, i choose to be some pathetic lazy bitch and just show how ungrateful i am by going on, following that shitty path when i could just within a SPLIT SECOND completely change my path. But no, i’m pathetic and lazy and blatantly have the intelligence to help myself, but no….’
Ah.. You piss me off. Shut up please. You don’t know what abuse is. Ungrateful fucking bitch. You’re laughing in the face of happiness whilst wiping your shitty asscrack on the most beautiful thing that is in the universe. LIFE. ONE CHANCE. You’ve gone a fraction through it and you’re acting like you’ve given up already.
Once again, it’s weak, pathetic, and irritating and not even in an appealing way. The fact that you want it so much actually does the opposite and makes me want to give you it more, the more you hold it back, the more i’m going to give it to you. Beyond your wildest dreams. And that’s just me as an example. In short, you’re doing the OPPOSITE thing you should do to get what you want.
I could go on until the end of time and then some.
Irritating waste of air. Grrr.
PS. If I fucked you you’d be TOO, TOO fucking broken to ever chat a pathetic word of shit ever again in your life.
Bitch. Get some guts.
Its almost like you only read the first half of my blog? Everything youve said I think Ive at least acknowledged as issues, if not made some progress on, but thats ok. For such an annoying, irritating bitch, whos so full of shit and not worth the time, that was sure a large amount of words.