I have no guarantees that I will be active (am I active here anyway really?) but Ive grabbed a twitter and blogr account in case I want to keep posting dumb thoughts and smutty pictures.
Im trying the tumblr import thing to blogr, so lets see how that goes. Apparently it takes a few days though?
Anyway, theres nothing to see currently, but if youre interested at all…
@bryekop on twitter
http://dbg.blogr.xxx/
Oh cool. well after years of off and on posting, and periods of neglect, i guess tumblr is probably going to make this blog a mess of broken ‘this image has violated terms and conditions’ posts, and essentially kill it.
Well, it sure has been a ride I guess.
This is a post I guess. I wasnt planning on making it until i made my last post. I didnt think I needed to.
Idk if is a surprise but i get bouts of depression. Not too often but it happens. Exercise really helps and thats why I started running. I never think while I run. I just do mental maths about my pace, how far I have to go, the pace I need to do to finish in a certain time… Sometime i just dont think at all and its wonderful. Running really helps.
But I also have motivation issues and thats where having a goal really helps too. “I cant be fucked going for a run today but I have to run up a mountain next month so I guess I should do some hill repeats”
When I started I couldnt do 200 meters or even imagine doing 5k. Now a fast 5k is my monday run. I couldnt see myself doing 10k ever. Now thursday is easy 10k day. I couldnt see myself doing a half marathon, and now I knock them out on a saturday for fun.
Targets are hard to find, And so are half marathons up a mountain. But i found one and I did one. And i felt pretty happy with myself yesterday.
Now Im running out of targets and the thought of nothing in the future bothers me in a way I never thought it would.
Its weird as fuck that im posting this here because its hardly regular content but… idk I feel worried about a lack of achievable goals to give a fuck about and what that means for life in general.
All my dumb life goals are ticked off. My cat died last month. My bloke would move on. Whats the point?
Yesterday I ran 21.1KM up a mountain and beat 66% of people who attempted the same thing.
Literally no one cares.
I feel like there is not much point in doing anything really.